First blog post! I am very excited to begin my blogging journey. Who woulda thought that I would be creating this? (definitely not me). If you would have told me a few years ago that I would be starting a blog I would have laughed. Yet, here I am–trying my best to be honest and vulnerable for whoever is willing to read. So I would like to start off by saying thank you for being here.

For quite some time now I have been searching for a creative outlet that will help me reconnect with myself and heal. I have spent so many years in emotional agony that I forgot the one thing I’ve been doing since I was a little girl–writing. Even at the peak of my pain, I kept a journal and filled it with all sorts of emotions and thoughts. After every entry I felt a little lighter, and my brain seemed to slow down, even if it was just for a moment. I’ve been wanting to do this for a bit now but I wasn’t ready, my mind was too chaotic and I wasn’t in a place where I could just flow with my words. So if you find yourself reading my posts and thinking “what the hell is she saying”, just know I was REALLY into the post lol

I have been many different women in this life time. My soul has had many evolutions, becoming and unbecoming. Up until recently I have been stuck in this cyclical pattern of thinking I had everything figured out and going right back to toxic habits and making self sabotaging decisions. For many years I’ve struggled with sex, alcohol, food, lies, substances, and toxic relationships. I struggled with these things because I couldn’t face the damage that had occurred from a rape, sexual abuse as a child, emotional abuse, and most of all I couldn’t face the damage that was caused from my own actions. So right when I thought I had turned a new leaf, it was just the same leaf turning over and over keeping me in this perpetual state of soaring then crashing.

I can proudly say that the recent leaf I’ve turned is new. Not because of some enigmatic force or circumstance, but because I finally rid myself of the things that didn’t serve me. The weight that was lifted set me on a new path, leading me to new relationships and new perspectives. One that allows me to create better habits and leads me down a road of spirituality that serves me and allows me to grow into the fullest expression of myself.

Look–do I have all of the answers? Absolutely fucking not. Nor am I trying to make it seem like I do because I have no idea what the fuck is going on sometimes and quite honestly I don’t think anyone does. All I do know is what helps my spirit feel a little lighter, and what quiets the chaos in my mind. And those little things and stories are what I wish to share on this blog. The following posts, I’ll get into the nitty gritty on the experiences that shaped who I am today. I truly feel that my vulnerability can help others organize their own thoughts and feelings. If you’re reading this and still think I’m fucking nuts, then that’s okay too. I get it lol.

I hope you stick around. I’ll try to be pretty consistent with my posts but as we all know, things get a lil hectic every now and then. Don’t forget to reach out to me in my message box if you have any thoughts to share. Please don’t be an asshole and send some hateful messages, be a man and DM me on IG. Jk Please be nice.

Always with love, Jade